Longing for Home by Dr Nihal D Amerasekera
"Mid pleasures and palaces though we may roam,
Be it ever so humble, there's no place like home!"
by John Howard Payne (1823)
I retired from an active professional life many years ago. I
now live amidst the hustle and bustle of London. I love life and where I live. I
remain ever thankful for the gift of my family. Longing for home is a natural
emotion that descends occasionally out of the blue. The passion and the desire are to recall and
remember people and places of the country where one was born. There comes a
certain compulsion to reminisce those nostalgic memories of my parents, the
extended family and the many images of the country and growing up. After having
lived abroad for over half a century, I have learnt to deal with homesickness.
When homesickness pulls on my heartstrings, I take to the
luxury of my rocking chair and turn to music that has sustained me through the
peaks and troughs of life. There is a vast collection of Sri Lankan music now
available on Apple music, Spotify and YouTube. Listening to the likes of Sunil
Santha and C.T Fernando transports me closer to home. The composition “Returning Home” by John Barry, played on the clarinet by Emma Johnson, is so very expressive and evocative. The title and
tone reflect a certain tenderness and a universal feeling of returning,
longing, and revisiting the past.
My mother, with her Kandyan ancestry, lived and schooled in Kandy. My parents were married at St Paul’s Church and I was born in that great
city in the hills. Despite its loveliness and the salubrious climate, I never
had the good fortune to live there. But over the years, I have enjoyed many
visits to Kandy. The mere thought of the scenic lake in the heart of the city
and the spiritual atmosphere of the Temple of the Tooth brings peace to my
soul. The serene grandeur of the surrounding
mountains that pay homage to this beautiful city provide a tranquil escape from
the modern world. There is often a passionate desire and a craving to return to
my place of birth.
There are times my mind takes me to our ancestral home in
Kegalle. Ashley Hall was built like an English Manor House. This was where our
entire clan of Amerasekeras gathered for family occasions. There were many
lavish parties at Ashley Hall. The fun and laughter of my extended family still
echo in my mind and will continue to linger for many years to come. The elegant
rose garden evoked a sense of romance, beauty, and serenity. Even now, whenever I smell roses, it takes me back to those happy times. The generosity, love and
affection of my uncle and aunt who lived there will always remain a wonderful
memory.
I began schooling in the late 1940’s and stayed with my
grandparents in Nugegoda. This is the
house that was most precious to me as a child. It was a quiet dignified house
opposite the Anglican Church of SS Mary & John. The landscape was green and
its beauty touched us with grace. The mornings were magical as the light glowed
on the green leaves and the dew on the grass shone so brightly. With the
passage of years the soul of the house died with my grandparents. In the new
millennium the house was sold and finally razed to the ground to become a car
park. The house of my childhood only exists in a secure corner of my memory but
its every room tells a story and every picture and piece of furniture is laden
with memories. I do visit the house in my dreams. Although many who lived there
are no more, I can still picture them with their traits and mannerisms.
There are times I wish to return to my school where I spent
my formative years. I was a boarder. Being there day and night those memories
of my life are deeply etched in my memory. The school has had its ups and downs
but have survived the rigors of time. The boarding sadly does not exist anymore.
Despite the years, friends I made there remain close to me today. I love to walk its long corridors and visit
the classrooms. Although much has changed in the landscape and the buildings, I
still see it as it was during my years of the 1950’s.
The faculty of medicine in Colombo was where I learnt my
trade and made many friends for life. Its lively common room and canteen and
the many lecture theatres were home to me for 5 long years. I recall the stress
and strain and the anxiety of examinations, but its agony and torment left me
many years ago. The wards and the long corridors of the General Hospital
Colombo were so much a part of my life that I still think and remember those
happy years.
It is the people that make a country. They bring cultural
richness, create traditions, and establish the nation's identity. Working at
the General Hospital in Kurunegala I came across the people of the Wanni. Despite
their poverty and harsh lives their humility, kindness and generosity have been
a beacon to me. I still remember the tears, smiles and all the human emotions
in between, of those who were my patients. I do hope the passage of years and
the efforts of successive governments have made their lives better and easier.
Food is one of the most powerful triggers for memory making
it a primary way people remember home and significant life moments. Sri Lankan
cuisine is well known the world over, but my memory is of the wonderful food
cooked at home by my mother. The cooked young Jak fruit called “polos ambula”
is the one that comes easily to mind. When I am in a Sri Lankan restaurant in
London the smell and taste of food transports me across the vast oceans and
swathes of land to where I was born and to my beloved mother.
It was in 1960 that the French chanteuse, Edith Piaf sang “Non,
je ne regrette rien” (No regrets). She did so with so much passion and
feeling. But regrets, sadly, are just a part of life. The few regrets I have do
surface from time to time, but the years have mellowed them to be just another
memory. I am happy I have made a good life for myself in the country of my
choice. The country where I was born and its many images of its people and
places will continue to remain an important part of me.
